Where do you go find god?

Where do you find your god? I don't mean the stuff they teach you in religious studies, I mean the profound sense that there is something greater than yourself and that you are somehow connected to it, and possibly a part of it. Where you know or feel there is a divine presence... an energy or 'intelligence' that is beyond you. Which is a funny thought in itself because how can you know that there is something that you don't know? Hmmmmm. And how is it that every race of people who have lived and that do live on this earth have come to the same conclusion? Different interpretations, but same conclusion. Do you catch yourself talking, praying, begging or bargaining with 'a higher someone'? I definitely do. It surprises me that I've done this since childhood. No one taught me to. I was firmly brought up to believe that there is no such thing as a god, and that religion was essentially rubbish. The only world that existed was the physical one around me, and that each life was a one way ticket. But it doesn't feel right to me... I'm often talking to this energy when I'm nervous or worried... I'm begging it for reassurance when I'm afraid, and I'm thanking it and questioning it at other times. I find 'my god' in